.Sunday, November 22, 2009 ' 12:14 AM Y
blogged
alrights . 1stly . thx to --ahXUAN for helping me edit .
xiexie ni loads <3 .
life became empty . heart became empty . feelings faded . nth went smoothly . having 2nd thoughts bout goin to korea . feel dam down . dunno wad's wrong . mood swing . sibei low suddenly . jus a trip dere for 8 days . nid to spent 1k over for clothings . and god noes how many (k) for the air ticket . sians . really dunno whether i shld go . sick n tired of tis life . would god allow me to change another life ? of cos im happy wit the frens i haf . but y mus all stead end up the same ? can i haf a change ? a change as in the way i brk wit steads ? y mus i always b the 1 enduring all the pain in silent . is tt how my name came about ? mus i always keep quiet and bear everything to myself ? am i jus born to gif happiness and take sadness . jus lyk how a tree gif oxygen and takes in carbon dioxide ? i dun wanna haf tis life really . can i jus end it by putting a fullstop ? or mus i also end it wit pain . y does everything comes to me . be it the pain . the sadness . the heartaches . do i really haf to endure tis . i really wonder y . when i nid a shoulder . the shoulder is nvr dere . when i nid a listening ear . i cant seem to speak up . when im feeling down . i dunno hu the fk i shld be missing . when im fall down . nobody is dere to pick me up . but if all tis happens on others . im always dere at the right place right time . hais .
Labels: tired of tis life
