.Wednesday, October 21, 2009 ' 2:53 AM Y
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after so long im here to post hahas . guess nobody read alr . but if u r reading tis right now . prepared to be dissapointed cos im not gonna gif advice or neither am i gonna ask u all tc . but im here to tell a story .
the story goes lyk tis ~
10 yrs ago . 2 mother in law . not knowing hu call hu till now . saying tt their son/son-in-law do not haf the life of being a boss . the matter was not revealed till 10 yrs later . leds talk about tis boss . he had a habit of spinning the coin whenever he has given up on a quarrel . or be it he has no idea of wad to talk anymore . as long as he is pushed to the corner . tis coin would be his inspiration . be it a gd or bad inspiration . it was his onli hope at tt point of time . 10 yrs ago he was forced to a corner . he starting spinning tis coin of his . he decided to became a boss of his own company . a boss which wouldnt earn much . a boss which had to slog for life . till his retirement . but he nvr gaf up . cos of 1 thing . his family . a family which gaf him the warmth love care and concern . everyday he slogged . day after day . months after months . years after years . he slogged non-stop . till 4 yrs ago . he began to slack . learn the habit of watching soccer . cos of his son . his son ran away from home . other den $ . tis son of his nvr called back . nvr sat down and eat dinner wit the family once for 2 yrs . wad could a guy hu slogged for his life do in the middle of the night . he smoked more n more . watched more n more soccer . health got worse n worse . nth bad happened to him . but he was hurt , deeply , by tis son hu nvr understood his plight of how hard it was to earn $ for the family's survival . tis son of his . kept playing day till night . night to day . ton n ton . bbq n bbq . but nvr once in his mind he was reminded of his family . he heck care his family to the extend tt the family ask him to come home . he would jus go home ask for more $ and go out ton once again . tis routine repeated for 2 yrs . to the son . his perspective was right . cos to him the family didnt wan him . didnt bother bout him . so y stay at home and face 4 walls . or quarrel wit the parents . there is no nid for such things to happen so he decided to left the hse . whether he's right or wrong up till tis point . nobody ever questioned him . but instead let him live in peace and cont wit their life . wad made him realised his wrong . it was the tears of his mother , grandmother and a piece of advice from his aunt . wad his aunt did was . to thrash everything out to him . telling him the past 2 yrs tt wad his mother had been feeling . a strong mother tt didnt cry for 2 yrs let it out all in 1 day . but tis son . tot it was a joke . cos he studies psychology on his own . he tot tt all woman would led it out sooner or later . but not in 1 day . nor in a month . it would last for yrs . but tis son was wrong . therefore improved his psychology learning process . but it didnt made him happy . cos the tears his mother dropped for him . he could feel it in his heart . his heart hurt assive it was a thousand of knives of stabbing at his heart within a split second . tt kinda pain was so unbearable tt cigg became of part his life whenever he felt hurt . but nobody knew . ppl tot it was a habit of his . or he got addicted to it . yes u can say his addicted . cos whenever he smokes . he is reminded of tt pain . but y he wanna feel tt pain ? ever wondered ? cos he wanna remind himself he was hurt once lyk tis . his mother wouldnt be feeling any better . so he nvr did the same thing again . the recent quarrels between his parents . has made him once again tot of running from home . but didnt . cos his brother taking his O lvls . not wanting to led his brother at such a young age of 16 to bear all tis . he told himself to stay on in the family . to be the pillar of the family . to not see tis family break apart . and to not see his brother flunk his O lvls . he did all he could to stay on . but day after day . he gets harder n harder for him . wad more could he do . he kept tinking of many ways . finding tt psychology is useless when he cant even use his reasoning to let tis family stay intact . he took it out on himself . not physically but mentally . he tortured himself . his heart once again felt tt pain . a pain tt was more unbearable den 4 yrs ago . compared to 4 yrs later . nth much he could do . till 3months ago . his parents 1st quarrelled to the extend of divorce . he was worried . his temper started to come back . not respecting status . shouting at his grandmother's unreasonable accusation . he kept all tis in his heart . bursting out 10yrs later . or officially 4 yrs . the whole family was called down for a supposedly *meeting* but turns out to be another quarrel . he kept quiet . sat down . listen . tt's all he could do . mother father . 2 grandmother 1 grandfather . 3 aunt 2 uncles . plus his brother . 12 person . had a heated argument over the things tt happened thru tis 10 yrs . he sat one side . listen . walked to the other side . smoke . tt's all he could do . but he burst . burst out in anger . scolded all of them . ask them to shut the fuck up . everyone scolded him . saying he has no respect for elderly . at tt point . tt boy didnt care too much . he shouted at all of them . saying everything out . 10 yrs ago . the 1st incident was the phone call of saying the boy's father had no life of a boss . the 2nd 1 was quarrelling about an overseas trip which the boy's mother took a safety charm for 3 families except 1 . in total of 4 families involved . tis caused tt family to misunderstood the boy's mother and quarrelled . the 3rd 1 was about giving money to the the grandsons whenever they go overseas as a good luck sign and not giving to the granddaughters cos to the grandmother . she favours boys over gals . but wad could b done . nth ? so they let it pass . and many thousand and one things happened . all tis small matters they jus forgive and forget . letting tt grandmother tink everything she's right . so she began to spout nonsense . making roti prata out of her words . twist and turn . there was onli her say . and no one's else say . the boy's mother got angry . over the 4 yrs tt she treated them lyk family . ( from the boy's mother perspective ) their family treated her lyk an outsider . jus a daughter-in-law . the boy got fed up . scolded the grandmother sons and daughters including his own father . it is all because u kids spoiled her . everything forgive and forget . right or wrong forget it . tt's y she's liddat . he said shut the fuck up cos the noise was too unbearable in the middle of the night . tis boy lived a life tt was nvr goin his way for 10 yrs . many things could be changed . he tried . and failed . nvr gif up . tried again . and failed again . he was too demoralised . he flunk his N . didnt do well enuff to go up to O lvls . at a young age of 18 . his waiting for his NS . started to wonder about his life . wad would change if he had studied . pass his N lvls . or even be more rebellious . would tis haf happened . he unknowingly had many thoughts flashing thru his mind . the worse also got . the best also got . but he nvr did any of it . cos he aint haf the capabilities . tonight was the worse nightmare tt boy had . cos nobody knew how he felt . secondly he saw his mother bang her head against the wall . trying to jump down the building . although the mother didnt succeed in doin so . he was worried till he also spit his heart out . he was all alone . in his heart . it was darkness . nvr would be daylight till matters resolve . how would tis story cont on . nobody noes . he onli could let nature take its course . but how long would nature take to react . he nvr knew . all he could do . was to sing his lungs out . smoke his life away . tink n tink n tink . his bro once told him . if u ever start tinking . u would nvr stop tinking . he knew tt all along . but he couldnt help it . all he could do was to tink , tink and tink ... life goes on ? or ends here . nobody noes . but the story stops here ...
P.S : its a rl story . if it made u cry . im sorrie . if it made u sad . im sorrie . if it made u realise the importance of family r/s . good for u . if it made u wake up and work hard in life . good job . tt's all for now peeps .
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